How to get out of guilt and be normal?

I am 15 years old. I have some recent problems in my life? Now I feel like a lunatic, like I got paranoia or shizophrenia. I have bad friends, no true friends. They are acting crazy and stupid in school. After spending the times with them I have realized that I am starting to be a lunatic. I think they stupify me. I have bad grades, I starting to feel like I am eccentric person but infact I act normally unlike other people. Which draws me to another conclusion that most of other people are crazy and I am the among the most normal. I was a fool when I was younger but I was not a full fool, I was conscious and knew what I did. Last years I feel like a invalid, like I got memory lack, I can't finish something, I feeled stupid, I lost creativity. I think that I am crazy inside, but normal outside. But the stupid thing is that no one recognizes me to be crazy, except they say I am a retard which is false and misconcepted belief among friends. My guilt is irrational and I think it destroys my personality and self-esteem. I feel neglected. The friends I visit in school are bastards, they just laugh, make nonesense, stupify themselves, humiliate others and make my day worser. I feel against myself, like I want to banish myself I see often others and think that I am the worst. I did sexual things which make me guilty, I sucked my penis male organ, I have a asymmetrical penis maybe from masturbation, I got asymmetrical testicles which is weird, I have pubic hair loss which is disguisting, I feel like I ruined my body, I feel like ill, but there are others who are ill, I have problems with my mentality, it's because of the idiotic society in which I live, school friends actually. I try to think positive in order to be normal, but I can't I only think of deaths, tragedies and failure. I seem I cannot accept myself, I cannot accept myself that I am discriminated and beaten (mentally) from the idiots. I feel mindless. But I can't even accept worse. There is worse, there are people who cutted their penis male organ, there are homosexuals who suck others male organ, there are castrated males, there are people that are chronically insane. I have some visual pictures about something that makes me distracted, I hear songs. Among society, I am sometimes anxious, I am anxious, neurotic. I feel in a society as the most low level valued person, I respect others but no one has something human in themselfs. Among the society the most honest person. How can I get out of this irrational, stupifying, crazy, self-destructing mentality and be like others. And not to be bothered with the "demons" in my head. How can I be normal inside and to be normal do I have to get out of a crazy society? And I need to banish my stupid guilt.

Can a nurse have dreads?

I live in North Carolina and I just got my CNA certification. I will be going into nursing. I currently have dreads, does anyone know if there is a rule against nurses or CNA's having dreads? I will be emailing a few places to ask but I would think there can not be a rule against it. as long as they are clean and pulled into a ponytail they should not be able to say anything about them. But that is my opinion.

Poll-In the video game Resident Evil Code Veronica who exactly is Veronica & and were there 2 Alexias?

Remember Alfred who was dressed like a woman and then his wig came off and then the self destruct system started.

To wet or...not to wet...forage?

You can just spray it to wet it down. You just want it to be wet enough to easily pass through the esophagus. Because it is forage and not pellets, he will chew it longer which prompts secretion of quite a bit of saliva which also lubricates it. If you do decide to soak it, 15 minutes is plenty of time to prevent choke but not remove too much of the nutrient value. Be sure to dispose of any excess water as it is considered to be organic waste comparable to sewage. If you use a hay bag to immerse it, it is easy to lift it out of the contaminated water and let it drip dry a little before it is fed. In the US, the EPA requires that water contaminated from soaking hay not be poured down drains.

Could I be pregnant?? Help please.?

So I got my period around may 9th, like that's when it finished. I never get my period twice in one month. Then 18th I had sex, and we used the pull out method and it got everywhere all over my thighs and all over everything. it soaked my thong. Then I got my period yesterday, the 29th. And it's different than usual. It's darker and lighter. I don't know if I'm pregnant or not. because I read you can get bleeding 6-12 days after intercourse because the baby is getting planted in or whatever...Please help. I'm so confused, and I'm peeing more often and my boobs are more sore, and I'm getting alot of headaches, Help please!!

What are the real issues facing America today?

Democrats and Republicans just like to argue and defend their positions; it's sort of like a sport. They also do this to avoid these issues because they probably don't know a good solution to them. There have been times when issues like these have been tried to have been solved, but they were only made even worse.

Is this normal after flu?

I had flu and was in bed for about six days. I'm feeling much better now and during the day my temperature is normal. However, in the late afternoon my temperature gets high again and remains high through the night. This is accompanied with severe night sweats where I am waking up soaking wet. Is this a normal pattern of recovery?