I need help please !?!?

my life sucks i'm 14 years old girl and my parents fight all the time until they stopped talking to reach other and my mom have ben sleeping in my room for 9 years now with me , they got devorsed for one day only but they got together again cause there will be even more fighting over the house , money and me . I have to older brothers the older one is 23 and the other one is 20 they both tried stopping it but it only got worse , i tried to stop it but they don't even listen to me they don't listen to me in any thing even if it wasn't about them my mom is better than my dad she only embarrasses me all the time and doesn't listen to me or any thing and she makes fun of my dreams and every thing i do nice like a project or something she says that i'm just like her every thing i do is just like her she says and my dad doesn't want me to do any thing but to take over his job he tells me that i have to take over his job and i don't want to i hate it i want to be an artist and a musician but he tells me that i can do it all her ( he owns a horse ridding club ) and he tells me that i'm complicated and he's wondering why but i already told him why i'm i acting like this around them it's because of him and my mom and he is ignoring this reason he wants another one and he tells me that i'm just like my mom a loser crazy lady ! and he tells me if i continue that way he will never take care of me or talk to me again and they both say to me that it's not his / her fault it's her/his ! and they both doesn't understand me or even listen and never asked me what i really want . I live in Egypt when i asked my best friend what should i do she told me to wait but the thing is if i'm gonna wait i'm going to do that until i die cause in Egypt we have to wait until we are 21 to be free and even after that we can't travel without our parent's agreement and guess what ! they don't want me to travel any were . each one of them tells me that he is the angel and the other one is the devil ( do u remember the episode of friends when Rachel had her both parents in her party in two different room and tried to keep up with both of them to make them happy ) my life is like that all the time i have to listen to them both all the time they never stop and BTW we never hang out together as a family cause they can't stand each other . and when i go out with one of them the other one get jealous and get made at me . please help me what should i do !!! i can't take it any more . and when i told them that i need to see a therapist they told me that it's not important and if i have any problem it will just go away by it self ! and i have though about suicide but every moment i think about it i destruct my self away with any thing i think that the only reason that it's keeping me away from doing it is cause it's forbidden and if i did it i will go to hell and i really don't want to lose my life and my second life also so ..... i just try to keep it out of my mind . and also i hate the idea of them i just want to get out of this !!!